Long time gone!

Wow! it has been a while since I have written here. Been tons of things going on. Been painting, going to group counseling, got a boyfriend, and just recently lost my 2 ferrets :(

Let's start at the beginning. Painting, yes been doing that. I would post those pictures.. but I am at work and don't have the pictures here, they are on facebook. But done that.. gave 2 to my mom, one to Allison, 1 to Keebler, 1 to my neighbor and my Aunt bought one from me. I have 4 hanging out at my apartment just looking for some good homes. They have really been therapeutic. It took one guy, who I was showing pictures of my art to, and he said "put it away, I don't want to see any of that until you paint something from your soul... something that wakes you up out of a dead sleep, that you can't sleep until you get it out on canvas" a week after he told me that I was woken up out of a dead sleep.. with this idea for a painting. It was awesome. So since then I have only painted images that have just come to me, no more requests.

Next, been going to group counseling. I love it. There are 8 women in it and it is just great to be around people who have been through similar things and aren't going to judge me for my feelings and actions. Granted.. that's what friends are supposed to do.. But it's nice to have those people to bounce ideas off of.

Next, I have a boyfriend now, yay! He is super AWESOME. I really like this one. I have never been with anyone that is this nice to me. He is exactly the kind of guy I have been looking for. He is super sweet, cares for me, TAKES care of me, and wants nothing more than for me to be happy. He likes me the way I am, doesn't tell me that I need to loose weight (like all the past boyfriends), wants to know all about me, wants me to always feel safe to where I never have to look over my shoulder again. I feel totally comfortable around him. I have never been this secure with a guy. I have also never been this mushy with one. I find myself saying things I never thought I would like, "I miss you MORE baby!!" I still feel like I have some of my walls up, as does he cause he has been hurt in the past too, but we talk about that and our fears and doubts and we work though them. This one is really special..
OOH so ABOUT him.. His name is Matt.. he is a little young. 21, but he in no way acts like it. He is way more mature than any guy I have dated... talked to.. been interested in. He is in the army (and will be getting deployed in April to Afganistan for a year). He is stationed at Ft Hood and is an hour away from me, so I only get to see him once a week. WHICH, I think is good right now because if he was here I know he would consume so much of my time and this way it can go slow. We have been together for a month now and I am not running away yet, which is surprising to me. I just feel so lucky to know him.. and he says the same thing about me. :)
Ok, that is all for now, enough gushing about him. More later.

Next.. oh the ferrets.. I dont know what happened.. they must have caught something. Zailie got sick right before we went to Huntsville 2 weekends ago and then died this past friday. Zakia got sick over the weekend and passed in a day. I wasn't THAT attached to them.. but it still sucked. I had my day of mourning for them.

SO that it my little update. At work now, so more later!