I had SUCH a great time this weekend! Misty, Shana, Andy, and Jenn came into town to see me! It was so great to see them. Seeing them was what I needed. I needed my close friends that care and love for me around me. Seeing as I dont really have anyone like that here. Who knows me, who cares about me, who want to make sure that I am ok. I miss that. I think that's why I feel so lonely here. Because I dont have that extreme closeness with people here. I don't have people here who know EVERYTHING about me. Misty and them are people that I can be completely honest with. People here... I dont feel like I CAN be completely honest and open with them. Not that there arent some amazing people that I am so lucky to have met. And I guess it will be hard and time consuming to get to that closeness with friends here that took years for me to develop with people back home.. but not having it now... especially now... makes me lonely.
But seeing my good friends what such a blessing. We had a blast! It really keeps me going. I really felt loved this weekend.
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Aftermath...
Things are getting better everyday. Baby steps here and there.. Went out last night with Laurie to go dance, however I spent the whole night sitting.. And not from lack of offers to get up and dance.. just from me being to scared to take the hand of the random guy. Think I need to go to counceling...
But other than that, I am doing fine. Still sad at times, but those times are becoming further apart. I have my friends who are there for me, asking me how I am doing. Checking up on me. I am really feeling the love and the prayers from them.
OH I am getting a washer and dryer this weekend. A girl I work with has a pair that she is selling for $150! AND I got my laptop yesterday... I am going to call her Francine.. not sure why.. but it seemed to fit!
Getting back into the groove of things, Thank you for your love and support!
But other than that, I am doing fine. Still sad at times, but those times are becoming further apart. I have my friends who are there for me, asking me how I am doing. Checking up on me. I am really feeling the love and the prayers from them.
OH I am getting a washer and dryer this weekend. A girl I work with has a pair that she is selling for $150! AND I got my laptop yesterday... I am going to call her Francine.. not sure why.. but it seemed to fit!
Getting back into the groove of things, Thank you for your love and support!
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Sweet 'Manda From Heaven!
Happy Birthday 'Manda!
LOVE YOU TONS!! And hope 25 treats you great! Sorry I can't make it today, bastards gave me patients all the way to sunday night. But I am sending you my love!! *PUSHES LOVE TO YOU!*
LOVE YOU TONS!! And hope 25 treats you great! Sorry I can't make it today, bastards gave me patients all the way to sunday night. But I am sending you my love!! *PUSHES LOVE TO YOU!*
Friday, November 28, 2008
Thanksgiving!
Happy Thanksgiving everyone!!
So I am in Huntsville this Thanksgiving, having a good time. Going to Ren Fest tomorrow cause 1. I dont have to work tomorrow and 2. it was yucky outside today. Although tomorrow is not looking too good either, but we shall see.
Went out last night with the Huntsville crew, good times! I miss the being able to go out with people like that, who know me so well.. almost better than I know myself, and who I can really talk to and am never left out. In Austin I feel very alone. I only have one friend and the one friend (Laurie) makes me not want to open up to her for one thing or another. I just get so annoyed with things that she does things she says, things she believes, the fact that she cannot deal with silence of any kind... but with people like Misty, we can be perfectly happy not talking for hours... or talking about everything non-stop for hours. We are on the same wave length and think the same things and ... I dont feel like I am being judged when I am with her... and I feel like she listens to what I say ... Laurie... (I kept count) she went a whole month of seeing me without ONCE asking how I was doing... there is something seriously wrong in that.
I love it in Austin, for the change of scenery and the job field... but the lack of friends gets to me sometime. Especially after spending good quality time with Huntsville friends and the ones that I am most comfortable around. BUT...I must be THANKFUL for what I have. A great job, well two great jobs, a roof over my head, awesome pets, and a good neighbor(Laurie), AND friends out there somewhere that I know love me and wish me well and are praying for me.
So I am in Huntsville this Thanksgiving, having a good time. Going to Ren Fest tomorrow cause 1. I dont have to work tomorrow and 2. it was yucky outside today. Although tomorrow is not looking too good either, but we shall see.
Went out last night with the Huntsville crew, good times! I miss the being able to go out with people like that, who know me so well.. almost better than I know myself, and who I can really talk to and am never left out. In Austin I feel very alone. I only have one friend and the one friend (Laurie) makes me not want to open up to her for one thing or another. I just get so annoyed with things that she does things she says, things she believes, the fact that she cannot deal with silence of any kind... but with people like Misty, we can be perfectly happy not talking for hours... or talking about everything non-stop for hours. We are on the same wave length and think the same things and ... I dont feel like I am being judged when I am with her... and I feel like she listens to what I say ... Laurie... (I kept count) she went a whole month of seeing me without ONCE asking how I was doing... there is something seriously wrong in that.
I love it in Austin, for the change of scenery and the job field... but the lack of friends gets to me sometime. Especially after spending good quality time with Huntsville friends and the ones that I am most comfortable around. BUT...I must be THANKFUL for what I have. A great job, well two great jobs, a roof over my head, awesome pets, and a good neighbor(Laurie), AND friends out there somewhere that I know love me and wish me well and are praying for me.
Thursday, October 30, 2008
7 facts
Ok, along with the other post.... Here ya go Amanda, my 7 facts about me...
1. I have owned a total of 4 ferrets in my life:Tequila, Zoe, Zailie, and now Zakia Falcor
2.I curently have 2 jobs and I LOVE them both
3. I have, in fact, sported an afro at one point in my life.
4. My favorite food is corn
5. When depressed my comfort food is a 2 liter of sprite and a bag of marshmellows
6. I realized that I have waaaaay too many shoes
annnnnd
7. this took me almost the whole time I was at work to finish!
1. I have owned a total of 4 ferrets in my life:Tequila, Zoe, Zailie, and now Zakia Falcor
2.I curently have 2 jobs and I LOVE them both
3. I have, in fact, sported an afro at one point in my life.
4. My favorite food is corn
5. When depressed my comfort food is a 2 liter of sprite and a bag of marshmellows
6. I realized that I have waaaaay too many shoes
annnnnd
7. this took me almost the whole time I was at work to finish!
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
He's not dead after all...
Well good news and bad news... the water in my upstairs neighbors apartment stopped running yesterday (1st time in a little over a week) bad news... I think he WAS dead and now whoever is up there is cleaning up the body. Cause they have been moving around there for an hour or so now this morning (its only 8:30). I heard what sounded like them squeegying(
Other than that... I had a great 4th of July, Schleif came to visit me! Hung out with me and my friends, watched fireworks, was my excuse to not go and see Brian. YAY! Yeah so we were all out having a great time and I get a text-i-poo from Brian "Hey I just got back into town and I was wondering if you wanted to come over and watch a movie" (which of course is code for sex) Well I replied gracefully: "Well I have a friend in town, and he is staying with me, in my bed". He replied back with "that was a low-blow, didnt need to know all that, Just kidding. Have a good time". To which I said... "I will". Idiot. What does he expect?! Me to be waiting by the phone desperately waiting for him to call me so I can rush to his side to be his late night booty call?!! Not so romantic in my book. Not really going to swoon over that.
Well.. I am going to try to go back to sleep again... for a few more hours.. I only slept 3 last night.
Other than that... I had a great 4th of July, Schleif came to visit me! Hung out with me and my friends, watched fireworks, was my excuse to not go and see Brian. YAY! Yeah so we were all out having a great time and I get a text-i-poo from Brian "Hey I just got back into town and I was wondering if you wanted to come over and watch a movie" (which of course is code for sex) Well I replied gracefully: "Well I have a friend in town, and he is staying with me, in my bed". He replied back with "that was a low-blow, didnt need to know all that, Just kidding. Have a good time". To which I said... "I will". Idiot. What does he expect?! Me to be waiting by the phone desperately waiting for him to call me so I can rush to his side to be his late night booty call?!! Not so romantic in my book. Not really going to swoon over that.
Well.. I am going to try to go back to sleep again... for a few more hours.. I only slept 3 last night.
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
Whistle while you work!
Too much to do and not enough sleep to function. For some reason I have not been able to sleep the past week or so, as much as I am used to.. or as much as any normal person is used to in that case. I went to bed last night around 3 ish, and then woke 2 hours later in a panic. I shot straight up and stared at my bedroom door like someone was about to walk through it. My heart was racing and everything, I have yet to be able to go back to sleep. And I have things to do and I know that my mind wont let me sleep till it is all done. ...Maybe I can take some of my hydrocodone cough syrup.. let that knock me out for a bit!
Also, my upstairs neighbor's water has been running in his bathroom for the past week... is this serious? should I tell my landlord? Or is it just me being weird cause i have seen too many Law and Order episodes? Cause I am picturing him laying in his bathtub, dead, and noone will find him until he starts to smell.... I'll tell them tomorrow...
Also, my upstairs neighbor's water has been running in his bathroom for the past week... is this serious? should I tell my landlord? Or is it just me being weird cause i have seen too many Law and Order episodes? Cause I am picturing him laying in his bathtub, dead, and noone will find him until he starts to smell.... I'll tell them tomorrow...
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