As of now

Things are getting better.. slowly. I am going on the 3rd night of sleeping in my bed. I forgot how much nicer it was than the couch. I am reading a book that my mom gave me on managing my mind. How to become more assertive and less passive/agressive, how to build self-esteem/ self-confidence, how to get out of depression, how to have healther relationships and so on. I am reading it and I feel like the title should be changed to: How to Manage Your Mind Georgia. It has some really good points. Ones that I am great at giving as advice.. but when it comes to me acutally listening to my own words.. it gets tough. But I am taking notes and trying out some new things in my own life so to get back on track.

I still feel very lonely here. And I have times where I wish I had the close friendsips that I used to have, here.. and feeling that I am in these "friendships" here mainly because I have no other options. And I can feel myself not voicing my opinions in these friendships because I believe that either, the people may get mad and not want to hang out anymore and thus I will be truly alone here, or that maybe, they arent even worth speaking up about because they won't last that long anyways.
I just think I am have been so lucky in the past to have friends around me all the time that cared for me so much and were ALWAYS there when I needed them and were only a few minutes away from me. And here.. it just doesnt seem like some people are that readily available and I am too tired with everything going on with me to push when they won't push for me.

But I am reading this book and trying to take it what it says as well as reading my Day by Day devotional from church. And with prayer and patience and a effort I can see things turning around for me.