Thursday, March 18, 2010
long time!
I really need to start finding this more. ... Have nothing to say really.. maybe that's why I always forget.. damn..
Friday, November 20, 2009
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Long time gone!
Wow! it has been a while since I have written here. Been tons of things going on. Been painting, going to group counseling, got a boyfriend, and just recently lost my 2 ferrets :(
Let's start at the beginning. Painting, yes been doing that. I would post those pictures.. but I am at work and don't have the pictures here, they are on facebook. But done that.. gave 2 to my mom, one to Allison, 1 to Keebler, 1 to my neighbor and my Aunt bought one from me. I have 4 hanging out at my apartment just looking for some good homes. They have really been therapeutic. It took one guy, who I was showing pictures of my art to, and he said "put it away, I don't want to see any of that until you paint something from your soul... something that wakes you up out of a dead sleep, that you can't sleep until you get it out on canvas" a week after he told me that I was woken up out of a dead sleep.. with this idea for a painting. It was awesome. So since then I have only painted images that have just come to me, no more requests.
Next, been going to group counseling. I love it. There are 8 women in it and it is just great to be around people who have been through similar things and aren't going to judge me for my feelings and actions. Granted.. that's what friends are supposed to do.. But it's nice to have those people to bounce ideas off of.
Next, I have a boyfriend now, yay! He is super AWESOME. I really like this one. I have never been with anyone that is this nice to me. He is exactly the kind of guy I have been looking for. He is super sweet, cares for me, TAKES care of me, and wants nothing more than for me to be happy. He likes me the way I am, doesn't tell me that I need to loose weight (like all the past boyfriends), wants to know all about me, wants me to always feel safe to where I never have to look over my shoulder again. I feel totally comfortable around him. I have never been this secure with a guy. I have also never been this mushy with one. I find myself saying things I never thought I would like, "I miss you MORE baby!!" I still feel like I have some of my walls up, as does he cause he has been hurt in the past too, but we talk about that and our fears and doubts and we work though them. This one is really special..
OOH so ABOUT him.. His name is Matt.. he is a little young. 21, but he in no way acts like it. He is way more mature than any guy I have dated... talked to.. been interested in. He is in the army (and will be getting deployed in April to Afganistan for a year). He is stationed at Ft Hood and is an hour away from me, so I only get to see him once a week. WHICH, I think is good right now because if he was here I know he would consume so much of my time and this way it can go slow. We have been together for a month now and I am not running away yet, which is surprising to me. I just feel so lucky to know him.. and he says the same thing about me. :)
Ok, that is all for now, enough gushing about him. More later.
Next.. oh the ferrets.. I dont know what happened.. they must have caught something. Zailie got sick right before we went to Huntsville 2 weekends ago and then died this past friday. Zakia got sick over the weekend and passed in a day. I wasn't THAT attached to them.. but it still sucked. I had my day of mourning for them.
SO that it my little update. At work now, so more later!
Let's start at the beginning. Painting, yes been doing that. I would post those pictures.. but I am at work and don't have the pictures here, they are on facebook. But done that.. gave 2 to my mom, one to Allison, 1 to Keebler, 1 to my neighbor and my Aunt bought one from me. I have 4 hanging out at my apartment just looking for some good homes. They have really been therapeutic. It took one guy, who I was showing pictures of my art to, and he said "put it away, I don't want to see any of that until you paint something from your soul... something that wakes you up out of a dead sleep, that you can't sleep until you get it out on canvas" a week after he told me that I was woken up out of a dead sleep.. with this idea for a painting. It was awesome. So since then I have only painted images that have just come to me, no more requests.
Next, been going to group counseling. I love it. There are 8 women in it and it is just great to be around people who have been through similar things and aren't going to judge me for my feelings and actions. Granted.. that's what friends are supposed to do.. But it's nice to have those people to bounce ideas off of.
Next, I have a boyfriend now, yay! He is super AWESOME. I really like this one. I have never been with anyone that is this nice to me. He is exactly the kind of guy I have been looking for. He is super sweet, cares for me, TAKES care of me, and wants nothing more than for me to be happy. He likes me the way I am, doesn't tell me that I need to loose weight (like all the past boyfriends), wants to know all about me, wants me to always feel safe to where I never have to look over my shoulder again. I feel totally comfortable around him. I have never been this secure with a guy. I have also never been this mushy with one. I find myself saying things I never thought I would like, "I miss you MORE baby!!" I still feel like I have some of my walls up, as does he cause he has been hurt in the past too, but we talk about that and our fears and doubts and we work though them. This one is really special..
OOH so ABOUT him.. His name is Matt.. he is a little young. 21, but he in no way acts like it. He is way more mature than any guy I have dated... talked to.. been interested in. He is in the army (and will be getting deployed in April to Afganistan for a year). He is stationed at Ft Hood and is an hour away from me, so I only get to see him once a week. WHICH, I think is good right now because if he was here I know he would consume so much of my time and this way it can go slow. We have been together for a month now and I am not running away yet, which is surprising to me. I just feel so lucky to know him.. and he says the same thing about me. :)
Ok, that is all for now, enough gushing about him. More later.
Next.. oh the ferrets.. I dont know what happened.. they must have caught something. Zailie got sick right before we went to Huntsville 2 weekends ago and then died this past friday. Zakia got sick over the weekend and passed in a day. I wasn't THAT attached to them.. but it still sucked. I had my day of mourning for them.
SO that it my little update. At work now, so more later!
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
My mural
So I thought I would include some pictures of the progression of my mural, the nexty entry will my my 2 latest paintings. Just getting the art out there so people can see!! Hope you enjoy!
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
A date, the sun, and work
So I had a date last night with the guy I mentioned a few entries ago. Still a nice guy. This was our 4th date! Things are still progressing there.. I will keep you updated.. when I know more.
Went out to float the river again! Starting to look much less pasty, and it's a great way to relax with friends. I am starting to make some more down here that I am hanging out with regurally. They are the ones I float with and karaoke with, and just chill with. I like 'em.
And with work, I have people at work, I am hanging out with some of them here and there.. we are going jogging once a week or maybe more than that... depending on the week and who can go. We go in the mornings when we get off work. It's good, I say jogging.. but I use that term loosely. For me it is more of a fast walk at the moment.. I need to work my way up to the whole.. "jogging" thing. I take Sammy and he is my excuse to go slow.. because he is new to the whole long distance walking thing, silly dog, always holding me back when I am training for a marathon... haha JUUST KIDDING! Running.. pft.. that is what is silly!
Went out to float the river again! Starting to look much less pasty, and it's a great way to relax with friends. I am starting to make some more down here that I am hanging out with regurally. They are the ones I float with and karaoke with, and just chill with. I like 'em.
And with work, I have people at work, I am hanging out with some of them here and there.. we are going jogging once a week or maybe more than that... depending on the week and who can go. We go in the mornings when we get off work. It's good, I say jogging.. but I use that term loosely. For me it is more of a fast walk at the moment.. I need to work my way up to the whole.. "jogging" thing. I take Sammy and he is my excuse to go slow.. because he is new to the whole long distance walking thing, silly dog, always holding me back when I am training for a marathon... haha JUUST KIDDING! Running.. pft.. that is what is silly!
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
been a while!!
Man, I have been slacking on updating this!!
Let's see.. I have been working.. hanging out with friends.. and working on a tan!
There... updated! hehe.
Work: Nothing new here.. working just like I always do.. nothing great.
Hanging out with friends: Now this one is fun! I have taken up karaoke on Sunday nights.. and believe it or not.. I am good! I know.. I was surprised too! I actually heard one girl in the crowd say "wow! she is amazing!" I sing some country... some 80's and yes... even some old school rap. I think its cause I practice my songs before I go out to the bar, I only choose songs that do not reach high notes.. so some songs by Miranda Lambert and Terry Clark are right up my alley. Along with ones by the Eurithmics, Pat Benetar, and obviously Salt n' Peppa :) I am asked to sing Shoop every week...
Been going on some dates, talking to guys.. the last guy I mentioned kinda faded for a bit but we started talking again and are going to try to get together sometime this week. He's really nice..
Working on getting my tan. On Monday I went, for the 2nd time in the Summer.. AND in my life, to float the river. Had a blast! I love it! Didn't get as burned as the last time, think I am past the burned stage and will start to get a tan.
Aside from all that.. still going to counceling.. although, I missed yesterday because I had a meeting at work.. I think I will continue again next week.
AND I am going to try to start running with some of my coworkers here. Need to slim down some.
More later, when more interesting things happen.
Let's see.. I have been working.. hanging out with friends.. and working on a tan!
There... updated! hehe.
Work: Nothing new here.. working just like I always do.. nothing great.
Hanging out with friends: Now this one is fun! I have taken up karaoke on Sunday nights.. and believe it or not.. I am good! I know.. I was surprised too! I actually heard one girl in the crowd say "wow! she is amazing!" I sing some country... some 80's and yes... even some old school rap. I think its cause I practice my songs before I go out to the bar, I only choose songs that do not reach high notes.. so some songs by Miranda Lambert and Terry Clark are right up my alley. Along with ones by the Eurithmics, Pat Benetar, and obviously Salt n' Peppa :) I am asked to sing Shoop every week...
Been going on some dates, talking to guys.. the last guy I mentioned kinda faded for a bit but we started talking again and are going to try to get together sometime this week. He's really nice..
Working on getting my tan. On Monday I went, for the 2nd time in the Summer.. AND in my life, to float the river. Had a blast! I love it! Didn't get as burned as the last time, think I am past the burned stage and will start to get a tan.
Aside from all that.. still going to counceling.. although, I missed yesterday because I had a meeting at work.. I think I will continue again next week.
AND I am going to try to start running with some of my coworkers here. Need to slim down some.
More later, when more interesting things happen.
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